Parties!!!

When I first started WW I would try and find any excuse possible to NOT follow the program. Even if it was for one day. After WI each week I would always go to Red Rooster on the way home and get LOTS of food. I had this motto... food has no points after WI!

If I had a party or an event to go to I would try and stay within my points but if it didn't happen then I would have the excuse that I had a party.

I never even considered that I was sabotaging myself... or letting myself down. Maybe I am older now and understand things better. Maybe I just feel differently about my weight loss... I had so much to lose then and although I really wanted to lose it, I don't actually think I believed I would. Until I started to and I knew the program worked. But I still kept doing those silly things.

Last night I had my cousins engagement and after having to buy pants that fitted because the zipper on my favourites broke, I decided I would eat my planned dinner before I went so that I wouldn't be tempted to eat the finger foods. I was determined that I wasn't going to give in even before I left. When I got there and saw that they had chips, lollies and almonds on every table my first thought was 'hmmm I wonder if those almonds are salted'. Close inspection showed they weren't. I knew they would save me if needed. Even after a crazy night filled with family dramas, all I ate was 4 almonds at 1/2 a point.

I am so damn proud of myself that I want to scream!!! I have never been this good. Never found away around my excuses. The best part is it is TTOTM and I was still able to say no. I even got on the treadmill before going and again today.

My partner was a little miffed that I wouldn't let her eat the chips! Ho hum. If were going to do this there were much better options than chips.

WI tomorrow morning. I am really hoping for a loss but because it is TTOTM I know it wont be as good as it could. I have usually given up after gains so I really don't want any of those. I never quit just end up eating bad that night or for a week. I am going to need a plan for that too. I am just hoping it wont be for a few weeks yet.