Just have ONE!

I have had a difficult time this week keeping my head in the game. I have still done really well but I have been having constant arguments with the little devil on my shoulder. I have kept within my points this week and still have a few leftover saved and bonus pts.

I went out to dinner on Thursday with a few friends. We went to a pub in South Melb which is known for the best parma and even though I don't eat meat I just HAD to have one. I had preplanned this in my points and had been doing 40 mins of exercise every day to make sure I had enough points. I had decided before I went that I would only eat some of it because otherwise it would be 14pts. Luckily the boys I went with never have any problems finishing my food... lol. I asked for vegies not slathered in butter so I ate them first and then I tasted the parma... It was absolutely divine. I have to say I really only enjoyed the first 5 mouthfuls and then I lost the flavour. I still had about 5 more mouthfuls to make sure... then I gave some to my partner and my friend finished the rest.

As it came with chips (which I can't resist) I then did the same thing with them. I only left a couple of them so I counted them as 7pts instead of 9pts. I enjoyed every single chip and felt fantastic when I covered my plate with the napkin.

They didn't have any nice desert so we decided to get gelato and I had a small cup which was 5 pts. I love my gelato so I ate every drop... YUM! All in all I was pretty proud of my dinner efforts. I didn't have any trouble staying within my allocated points.

Friday was when the little devil appeared. We had been at the Melbourne Storm game all day,(Storm won of course!! and beat my partners team StGeorge Dragons) and were so good we took all our own food and bypassed all the greasy food shops. Boy did they smell good tho!! On the way home I had a coffee from one of my fav coffee places.

Dinner was a little later than usual but all still within my pts. Then my partner asked it I wanted a peppermint tea with one of WW Choc Brownies... sure why not I thought. I have bypassed everything I wanted today, I deserve this... WRONG!!! I had one... gone in about 3 seconds and absolutely delicious!!! Hmmm I have enough pts for another... why not... 3 seconds later GONE! Then the little devil said 'Its ok u can binge on these they are WW's just have another one... you have saved pts left and you haven't even touched your bonus pts'. Just as I was about to get another one, the little angle on my other shoulder reminded 'You are so close to 90kgs and going to the Gold Class cinemas for your reward'. I thought about it, while the devil tried to blow her of my shoulder, and decided it was time to distract myself...

I was so torn... yummy food... under 90kg... yummy food... under 90kg... OMG why is it so hard to resist... I stayed on the couch and didn't have another one... but I was so close to ruining everything... I want to lose this weight but food is so yummy... I just wish I had more control.

Yesterday (Saturday) because I was so good on Friday, I decided it would be ok to share a low fat cheesecake with my partner... was that the devil... I am not sure, as I forgot to check... lol! It was only 2.5pts each so not too bad anyway. Within my pts... but I know how this slippery slope travels... its definitely not downwards!

Today is so hard being Easter Sunday nothing is open and I have nothing to distract me from eating. I haven't been out of control but it would be so easy. In saying that, I do have points left so it wouldn't be a complete blow out (that sounds like the devil again) ... I just don't want to do it so early in the game/journey (Thank god for the angel). It's only the end of week 3 today and I have WI tomorrow... I can't wait to see how all the things I have eaten have affected my loss (hopefully no gain). I have already lost 6kg and I brought myself 2 gorgeous pendents because I thought I deserved them. Although I am sure when I booked my hairdresser appt for next week that was the same reason... other than my hair is so long I can almost tie it up... which is not my style at all... I am trialing a new hairdresser and if they cut well I will go back and let them colour it.

I will post my loss tomorrow. I don't have anything on this easter... No one in my family celebrates it so it is just a lazy weekend for me. I am on holidays as I am a primary teacher and when I started WW again 3 weeks ago I thought I was going to have a really hard time while on hols but it has been ok. I have keep myself busy with the WW chat and other appts that I never get time to do when I am teaching... Next week I will be spending a lot of time with my nan. My cousin and I are both teachers so every holidays we take my nan shopping for a day as she loves to shop and make a full day of it including lunch. This year we are also going out for a fancy lunch at the Sofitel in the city... I am really worried about that as their deserts are too die for!!! Maybe I wont eat any food just deserts... lol. I don't have as much time next week to exercise so it is going to be so hard. I need to make time I guess. At least my nan wont keep us out too late... she is still going stong not quite 70 yet and very blunt so if I eat anything too bad she will tell me... no question about it.

I feel sorry for you guys having to read my long posts... I apologise. I am a chatter from way back and I can't help rambling!